Undeniable feelings

A typical day of mine consists of a bunch of mixed emotions. However, the below mentioned feelings are something that attack me at different junctures of most days & I can’t seem to shake them off!

Feeling of ‘I don’t belong here’

Feeling of helplessness that I cannot help all the dogs that I see on the street

Feeling of absolute content when I look at my bachlings

Feeling of absolute terror as an aftermath of some of my nightmares

Most importantly… the feeling of hunger at random and inappropriate moments 

Love or Not to love!

I think I may have been in love with you. I know so! I have loved you since the day I saw you the first time! I know I know... it is mushy & stupid, and a line that has been used till death. But I cannot help it, I speak of nothing but the truth! I could think of nothing but you in those years of my life. I was in my teens when I saw you, and and everything about you turned me into a mushy sucker! 

To think of it, had I put in that much of attention into my studies, as I invested in you, I'd have much better results back then! 

You were my first love and I think the feeling is still there!

Wait! What now! 

Why am I talking about you after so many years? What made me think of you! Do I actually love you or just the idea of you! 

What kind of love is this? We were never together! The idea of us being together is ludicrous! You many never know how I feel, because obviously I shall NEVER say.. EVER! 

Now that I am penning it down, it does seem a bit odd and I feel like the Queen of creep central! But let me assure you it is nothing like that! Yes I followed you around like a love sick puppy, stalked you, gave you few blank calls; but all in the name of love! Nothing creepy about it!

The hard core truth is... Possibly if I knew you now, I may not even be in love with you! But, I’d like the teenage me to have this feeling alive within her! It is hurting no one, the late 30 me is not going to do anything about it! That feeling just sits there in a time capsule etched in the teenage me's heart forever! 

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Villains with a Heart

These villains have tormented the world and the protagonists have gone through trials & tribulations to vanquish these guys. However, do we know that these so called villains or bad guys also had a heart? May be they were misunderstood... may be injustice was dished out to them... that we may never know... but what we do know that these 5 guys were all hearts and we got them wrong!

Voldermort believed in Harry’s education; he always attacked just before the holidays or at the end of the school year.

The Joker only wanted to earn some money and share some jokes. Too bad that people did not get his jokes and labeled him as an evil clown with a broken psyche.

Gabbar Singh was an art appreciating person.  Why else would he ask Basanti to dance for his men? He also appreciated folk dance & music because he seemed elated & appreciative of the performance of “Mehbooba” by the gypsies.

Shakaal was an animal lover! He believed that no matter what, his pet sharks should not be devoid of food! So he brought in food for those lil guys. We really cannot help if the itsy bitsy Sharkey’s favorite food is people.

Agent Smith was just an evolving program doing his job of stopping any loose cannons. It is Neo’s fault actually that he has to go and revolt against the Matrix; but we all know who was termed as the ‘villain’.

If you have an open mind, you’d find more of these guys. All I am saying is… the villains might not be all bad, they may have a heart or a wish or two (just like the next person)… try to look at it from their point of view once in a while!

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Silence...

Unlike what the English language dictates, Silence is not always golden, and silence most definitely is not a sign of agreement always. A pause can be pregnant, eerie and uncomfortable. 

Silence can be cruel if all you want to hear is a sound; does not matter what sound it is; but just a sound of anyone or anything.

It can be mournful and deafening if you know all is lost and yet you have to fight on, just for the sake of it.

On the other hand, if you accept this silence as a part of your life, as your friend, you are not lonely anymore, and then the silence becomes profound, deep and eloquent…

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